Behold, All Things Have Become New

December 7, 2010 at 10:00 am · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: 2 Corinthians 5:17, All things have become new, Behold, Bible, Cry, crying, freedom, God, ihop, IHOP-KC, Jesus, KC, New, new creation, Past, phillipians, Whom the Son Sets Free

This is something that I’ve been trying to work out in myself for a long time, well, since I got right with the Lord. Looking past my old man, because he’s dead. I am no longer who I was, but am now a new creation in Christ.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. (2Cor5:17)

The Lord basically did this in my heart one night in the prayer room after we went through the relational wholeness intensive here at IHOP-KC. I was feeling just a lot of pain during the intensive, and I wanted to cry. I couldn’t and I felt like the Lord wouldn’t let me. I also couldn’t seem to let go of my past and something going on in the moment. I always felt like God was looking at my past and how I’m not worthy to be His. I always seemed to have the weight of my past on my shoulders, like it was my burden to keep bearing.. but Jesus saw/sees differently. He wanted/wants to give me rest from my past and just REST IN HIM.

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. (Matt.11:28-30)

He wants me to give everything to Him, so He can carry my burdens. Especially my past, because I don’t have to dwell there anymore. He wants me to focus on Him, to focus on the wedding day, and the age to come..to look forward, to press on towards the goal, the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (Phil.3:14)

After an odd series of events, in the prayer room the tuesday night following the intensive, I finally cried. I was reading revelation, after just crying out to the Lord to touch me for an hour or more. He heard me, and Holy Spirit came on me at like 10:15 or so, and I cried for a good 40 minutes. It wasn’t the crying that made things better, it was the emotions and pain He finally let me let out. The release He allowed me to have that night made me feel so light and easy, I even looked different when I looked in a mirror. He had set me free from carrying my past with me, even though I had already been delivered from it. I let it weigh me down for a long time, and it’s part of the reason why I kept stumbling, even in the internship. I wasn’t focusing enough of my life or self on Him, and He is the reason I am here, and becoming who I’m supposed to be.

It was in a moment, and a work in my heart that I only felt by crying. I know now that all those times in the awakening services that He was preparing me for that night and even more moments with Him to come, as well as doing other things that I’m not aware of yet. I need to continue to look into myself and press into Him to see where He wants to take me next. The next things He wants to do in me so that I can bring His name to the nations of the earth, or maybe just my city.

The point I’m trying to make is that we don’t have to carry our pasts with us once we’re set free. He loves to set us free, and let us be who we are without are pasts attached to us. Whom the Son sets free, is free indeed. And this is what the Lord has done in me concerning my past. I don’t have to carry it anymore. I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. The old man is gone, and the new man has come. I’m not looking back, I’m not going back. I belong to Jesus.

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