This is just an update and more knowledgeable overview of my testimony, some of it may be in detail, some may not be.

So to start, basically I grew up in the church, felt like I had a great home life as a child but looking back, don’t think it was as great as I thought. By the time I was 10-12 years old I had started looking at pornography and had developed same sex attractions. I believe that a root issue to these things was that I was molested by a male babysitter, possibly multiple times, around the age of 6-8 years old.

By the time I was 18, I was addicted to porn, and on my way out of the closet. I had professed to be a Christian my whole life, only knowing about God and not actually knowing Him. I walked the walked and talked the talked but didn’t do anything to back it up. But God had different plans for me. I got invited to go to the Onething Conference in Kansas City, MO. Lou Engle spoke on confessing our sin, and we went back to the hotel and I confessed some of it, and then more once I got home. It was at this point in my life that I decided that I was going to walk away from the homosexual lifestyle, even though I hadn’t really gone to far into it – by God’s Grace!

I can honestly say that I have had some freedom, but I know there is more! I still struggle daily with the same sex attractions and am dealing with my porn addiction by getting rid of sources to access it. I sold my iPhone after just getting the new one and having it for 3 months due to wanting freedom more than a phone. It was a moment that the Lord said “Are you willing to lay down a thing that you enjoy, for ME now, rather than keep struggling?”

I am currently seeking more healing from the Lord, and who knows if I will ever be completely free from some of it. But as I press into prayer and the Word, there is no limits for the Lord! He can pull us out of any pit, it doesn’t matter how deep you think you’re in, He can reach you.

Now, I am running hard after the Lord, walking in freedom, and not gonna worry about my past, it’s gone. Even if I still struggle,  His leadership in my life is perfect, and He won’t put me to shame if I put my trust in Him.