Passionately pursuing purity in Christ
January 28, 2012 at 1:48 am · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: Bible, Blog, Blogging, Blogs, Christ, Christian, church, Faith, freedom, God, holy, Holy Bible, Holy Spirit, ihop, IHOP-KC, revelation, testimony
This is just an update and more knowledgeable overview of my testimony, some of it may be in detail, some may not be.
So to start, basically I grew up in the church, felt like I had a great home life as a child but looking back, don’t think it was as great as I thought. By the time I was 10-12 years old I had started looking at pornography and had developed same sex attractions. I believe that a root issue to these things was that I was molested by a male babysitter, possibly multiple times, around the age of 6-8 years old.
By the time I was 18, I was addicted to porn, and on my way out of the closet. I had professed to be a Christian my whole life, only knowing about God and not actually knowing Him. I walked the walked and talked the talked but didn’t do anything to back it up. But God had different plans for me. I got invited to go to the Onething Conference in Kansas City, MO. Lou Engle spoke on confessing our sin, and we went back to the hotel and I confessed some of it, and then more once I got home. It was at this point in my life that I decided that I was going to walk away from the homosexual lifestyle, even though I hadn’t really gone to far into it – by God’s Grace!
I can honestly say that I have had some freedom, but I know there is more! I still struggle daily with the same sex attractions and am dealing with my porn addiction by getting rid of sources to access it. I sold my iPhone after just getting the new one and having it for 3 months due to wanting freedom more than a phone. It was a moment that the Lord said “Are you willing to lay down a thing that you enjoy, for ME now, rather than keep struggling?”
I am currently seeking more healing from the Lord, and who knows if I will ever be completely free from some of it. But as I press into prayer and the Word, there is no limits for the Lord! He can pull us out of any pit, it doesn’t matter how deep you think you’re in, He can reach you.
Now, I am running hard after the Lord, walking in freedom, and not gonna worry about my past, it’s gone. Even if I still struggle, His leadership in my life is perfect, and He won’t put me to shame if I put my trust in Him.
February 23, 2011 at 6:35 pm · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: Abortion, alcohol, america, billion, billions, drugs, Fast, For such a time as this, hebrews, homosexuality, human trafficking, Jesus, Job, Maranatha, pornography, Pray, psalm, sex trafficking, social injustice, the end, tough times ahead, united states
Recently, I have been feeling called to do some sort of fast for the ending of social-injustices. Such as abortion, human sex trafficking, the ending of pornography and homosexuality in America. (Ps25:9, Ps37:6, Ps72:4, Ps106:3, Prov21:3) I believe the Lord can end such things as these, if we petition Him. (Job36:6, Ps103:6, Prov29:26) He already knows what have need of or are going to ask for in prayer, He just wants us to talk to Him and ask Him for those things. No good thing will He with-hold from those who put their trust in Him, and seek His face. (Hebrews 11:6, Psalm 84:10-12)
6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
12 LORD Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.
In 2005 (the most recent year for which there is reliable data), approximately 1.21 million abortions took place in the U.S., down from an estimated 1.29 million in 2002, 1.31 million in 2000 and 1.36 million in 1996. From 1973 through 2005, more than 45 million legal abortions have occurred in the U.S. (AGI). Today there has been well over 50,000,000 abortions in the united states alone, legal or illegal.
27 million people are in modern-day slavery across the world, this includes sex trafficking and forced labor slaves. 80% are women and girls, 50% are children. 14,500 – 17,500 – Number of foreign nationals trafficked into the United States every year (2004). This illegal trade brings in over $32 billion a year worldwide.
Pornography brings in approximately $14,000,000,000(yes billion) a year in the United States alone. Approximately $56 Billion worldwide annually. It is absolute filth and garbage. It can become an addiction, with similar effects as drugs and alcohol have. (Small holes and deterioration on and in the brain, not 100% if this happens with a porn addiction but I’m sure something like this does occur). The chemicals released on the brain when viewing are similar to the effects of using drugs such as codeine or crack cocaine.
Homosexuality – in and of itself – identifying yourself as someone who is attracted to the same sex – is not sin, as well as the actual attractions to the same sex are not sin. What is sin – is when we take those thoughts and attractions and turn them into lust, view pornography, or act out in sexual relations with another member of the same sex (married gay couple or not). I.e. illicit sex acts, and or gay sex/gay marriage. Although, it is not a choice to develop the attractions, there is a choice to walk away or embrace it as who you are. There is hope to become new and more in Jesus Christ. I am a living testimony of that. (Click here for my testimony)
As of today, The Obama administration has “dropped the defense of the anti-gay marriage law”. This, in the Lord’s eyes, is a sad day. He is consumed with loving us, yet we willingly choose to walk away from Him.
There has been talk of prophetic words that indicate that America is going to have some serious hardship over the next 5-10 years. Under the weight of man’s sin, creation’s groan is going to have some serious temper tantrums in the months and years to come. Just to name a few things that could happen, earthquakes in DC and the west coast, volcanoes on the west coast acting up, solar storms that could cause major internet and communication problems, and droughts leading to famines, and higher food costs.
I believe that this is just the beginning of the birth pangs, described by Jesus Himself in Matthew 24(v. 7).
The time is now to act. As His bride, who will be made ready for Him, by His Spirit, we must take action. For such a time as this, He has me feeling the need to act in fasting and prayer, right as this defense for anti-gay marriage is dropped. We need to FAST and PRAY like we never have before. The urgency of the hour is upon us. There is no time to waste in the lesser pleasures of this world. It’s time to get in the Word, renew our minds, and be un-offended when the Lord begins to move with even greater power.
I believe the Lord has called me to a long term fast of no meats and sweets for the ending of social injustices as listed above. Will you, too, hear the call, as all of these things come crashing down on us, to FAST and PRAY weekly? Join me – by fasting meats and sweets one day a week for at least a year.
For such a time as this, He has called us to Pray for the ending of these injustices with. Ask the Lord to have His will be done, and His kingdom come in the lives of people in circumstances/situations listed above. And in your own life, let His kingdom come and His will be done.
Maranatha, Come, Lord Jesus!
December 13, 2010 at 10:00 am · Filed under Uncategorized
And Jesus answered and said to them: “Take heed that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name saying ‘I am the Christ,’ and will deceive many. And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not troubled; for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes in various places. All these things are the beginning of sorrows. (Matthew 24:4-8 Emphasis added)
In January 2010, Haiti had a 7.0 earthquake which literally shook the nation. There was so much devastation and pain going on there. I was told that there was a 3 day solemn assembly called, but I’m not sure if it actually was. Haiti’s national religion is or was voodoo, but I know that the Lord is turning that nation back to Himself. It might have partly been a judgment saying, ‘turn back to me.’
A little over a month later in February 2010, there was another massive earthquake (8.8) in Chile which also shook that nation, but it almost seemed not as bad as Haiti. There was a lesser death toll on the country. I’m not sure what this one might have been. Shortly after that there was an abnormal earthquake in Illinois, fault line was not really near where it happened at. It was a 3.8 magnitude. It’s epicenter was only about 15 miles from my house, and I didn’t wake up to it at all. It was supposedly felt from Wisconsin to Tennessee.
There was a few more all over the place in Indonesia, Turkey, off the coast of Japan, India, and the Philippines. All recorded this year, all on the significant earthquake list on the government’s website.
HIV/AIDS is an epidemic that has been getting worse every year, in heterosexual and homosexual couples.. pre-marital sex is the reason for this. Homosexuality is a different story for a different blog post.
Cholera and diseases such as the flu, and STDs are again an epidemic among the nations. Caused by sin, and the fallen nature are the pestilences that Jesus was talking about in this verse. The things that must come. These are the beginning of sorrows.
Poverty has just tipped over 1 billion people world wide. That means one-in-six people lives in absolute poverty. Not everyone has clean water, over 15 million children per year die to a water related death, meaning unclean or lack of. A similar number of people go to sleep hungry and die every year due to hunger, famines.
We must pray into these things that the Lord will bring His justice, by bringing His Son to these people, and we can help by giving to the least of these.
Jesus said this in context to “what will be the sign of your coming and of the end?”
We must prepare ourselves for His coming by watching, fasting, and praying. The end of the age is soon. Jesus is coming and these are just the beginning of sorrows. Lord give us hearts to endure.
For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes in various places. All these things are the beginning of sorrows. (Matthew 24:7-8)
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